loving words heal

Boy: i saw her today
Girl: i saw him today

Boy: it seems like its been forever
Girl: i wonder if he still cares

Boy: she looks better than before
Girl: i couldn't stop staring at him

Boy: i asked how things were going
Girl: i asked about his new girlfriend

Boy: i'd pick her over any girl i'm with
Girl: he's probably really happy now

Boy: i can't even look at her without crying
Girl: he couldn't even look at me

Boy: i told her i miss her
Girl: he didn' mean it

Boy: I meant it
Girl: he doesn't mean it

Boy: i love her
Girl: he loves his new girlfriend

Boy: i held her for the last time
Girl: he gave me a friendly hug

Boy: then i went home and cried
Girl: then i went home and cried

Boy: i lost her

Girl: i love him

i wonder wad u were tinking when u posted tis as a testimonial for him.
i wonder wad were u fantasing abt.
i wonder wad ur trying to do.

on the other hand.
i wonder wads going thru ur mind dat u accepted tis
wad u were tinking abt of her when u click 'approve'
were u still tinking of her?
missing her?
loving her?
if yes. jus let me noe.
cos im selfish.
i dun wan to noe dat my place has been shared.
i dun care even if i had a bigger part.
or wadeva.
as long as its shared.
i'll leave.
u're making me feel so insecure.
n each time i mention it.
u nv give me a satisfied reply.
u'll jus kick up a fuss
n ignore me giving me a face.
im alreadi so upset.
so insecure.
all i nid is ur comfort.
but i got nth.
always i had to comfort myself
console myself.
when all i nid to peace my heart
is a hug. ur hug.
encouraging words.
sincere words.
let me noe u mean it
when u say 'i love u'
dun make it sound so forced wun u.
it hurts me.
i hate it when i cry n teared silently
n i have to go hug u.
pull ur hands up to hug my fragile body
squeeze u tight to let u noe i wan to be hugged
kiss u to let u noe i wan u
to let u noe i do nid u.

where r u my dear.
where r u.
im tired of looking for u.
tired of groping around my only comfort when i nid u

too tired to even smile.
but u r not tired enuf to try out playing games aren't u?
isn't 'im tired' becoming an excuse for u?
has the tot of im also tired ever struck u?
n yet dat tiredness has nv stopped me
no matter how tired i was
i'll still wake up by 5.30am to go ur hse
wake up 2 hrs before my sch starts
n get lunch frm coffee shop for u.
n den im set to leave the hse.
n im always wondering whether u ever felt my presence.
cos frm the moment i step into ur hse
till the moment i step out.
u were sleeping the whole way thru.
even in my baddest of mood 
i'll still tok nicely to u.
speak sweetly to u.
hoping u'll do the same.
but sumtimes all i got was a short temper flare frm u
impatient voice.
ignorance frm u.
do i reali deserve all these treatment?

n now u tink im getting ridiculous.
tink im unreasonable.
jus cos i question u abt dat damn testimonial.
u understand the meaning of those darn words.
n yet had the cheek to approve.
wad u mean by dat.
u accept wad she's saying?
u mean wad she's saying is true?
u mean ..
enuf.
u din tink for me at all.
no u din.

be more understanding my dear.

now dat u broke the news to me saying u cldnt celebrate my bday.
my tears jus spring into my eyes.
i accept it din i?
i had to accept dat since u have to work
im not angry
totally not angry
dunoe y u tink i'll get angry.
im jus totally upset.
sometink u noe i have been looking forward to always.
seems to be dashed.
but there's nth we can do
i'll understand
i'll understand..

wondering if u rmb ur promise to me.
'i will get u a pair of purple seashells for ur bday. i promise u k'
u said so.
cos it symbolises everlasting love.
i'll see.
see if u reali mean wad u say.
see if u r reali sincere.
till den..

got up feeling so hopeless.

got up feeling so depressed.

got up feeling so disappointed.

suddenly it struck me y i was feeling this way.

insecure.

dats wad im feeling exactly.

there's no security at all.

probably the trust wasnt deep enuf yet.

probably u jus din tink for my feelings.

i was worried.

till i cried.

probably more scared than worried.

tis hateful feeling is overwhelming me again.

alas. my worst nitemares din come true.

im glad.

 

I HATE MY GRP!

 

 

sat 22jul06

darling's dad bday.
spent a whole afternoon napping with dear.
reali slept thru half the day lo.
so wasted.
tot they wld be out celebrating.
turn out his dad was working.
zzzz
in the end had dinner with the whole family at home
canadian pizza!
well.
not so nice la
much prefer pizza hut.

drank a lil wine before slp
got a lil tipsy thou
den lights off.
n i slept so soundly

oh my gosh.
alas!
2 projects down le.
wee!
=]
alrite.
way to go.
zzzz
tired out.

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